I can't stop...

... thinking.

It's not helping. Maybe it is, I don't know.

I told a couple people today, I want to have the "here I am, send me Lord" attitude. Not follow Jesus kicking and screaming like a spoiled brat.

I want my obedience to be a sweet perfume to Him, not a stench of rotten soul.

I want to be the kind of daughter to God that I want Sonora to be towards me.

So far, she is so much better at it than I am.

I want to trust Him like she trusts me.

He deserves it way more than I do, yet she seems to trust me more than I trust Him.

I am exhausted.

I want to just be. Not think. Not feel. Not anticipate. Just be. Just for a moment.

I think I need some Sees candy.

And Orange Julius.

And maybe a Cinnabon.

And then stop there.

I got boxes today.

And the floorplan.

20 years of life packed into 2 weeks and some boxes.

Time to purge.